AAAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Have you ever been in a hallway full of doors and you can't figure out which one to go in. Which ones have electric knobs, I eventually think I found one to go into because it might be a cool room but I cant go in. Im trying to but you cant break a door down, but you cant just tap it and go to the next you have to apply the right pressure, or else the right door may never open.

You said you needed your space
I wasn't where you wanted to be
I didn't stand in your way
I only want you to be happy
And so how surprised am I
To see you here tonight
Oh, cant you see
That for worse,or for better,
We're better together
Please, just come back home
No, don't say that you're sorry
And I won't say I told you so
Sometimes in our life
We get to where we wonder if
The long road that we're on
Is headin' in the same direction
Well, when it comes to you and me
We're right where I know we should be
Oh, cant you see
That for worse,
or for better,
We're better together
Please, just come back home

How did this happen? Im going to go see Sarah tonight, I think but Im all confused again. How come I can help everyone else and I have the right answers but I can't do it? How did you slip back in?

"I thought you were just a passing storm, but nope it turns out i live in Seattle, its gonna rain and it isn't gonna stop but for a little while." Dan

Long time no write. lol

Well Im getting less and less good at this but Ive been pretty good. I was actually really happy to hear that Jessica had finally found what she wanted and Colby wasn't being a douche and she wouldn't have to deal with this shit any longer but I guess not. I hope it works out for them, and it works soon. I met this girl through one of my friends a month ago and weve been trying to get together but we are both sooo busy. Im just waiting for the opportunity to leave that hallway of doors and walk into the next room. Shes going to state with me but shes living at home soo whatever. Why am I even looking before I get to state am I retarted? I just can't wait for the next month to go by. I cant believe 3 months ago this was to be the best summer of my life then a month ago I was wishing i lived in Australia and now Im good and Im just trying to figure out whether to punch left or duck right. lol The farm is self destructiong like it does every year, and Im trying to save everthing like I always do, trying to take the weight of the world on my shoulders, but you can't do that without hurting your back. Why do I do it? Why do I try so hard to help people like mark who are good but they treat people like shit, I mean I work for him why am I doing his job trying to make sure everythign stays running?


Ps. You said it not me "People don't change" and you are right so just listen to yourself cause you know what to do and whats best, just do it.

Im walking on sunshine

Wow! This is wierd, I just realized I have not made nearly enough money yet this summer and its half over I gotta get crackin. I just thought about the past week and I dont know. Like today last week I was going to serve beer at a Durham Bulls game to save Ms. Bost. I was trying to make it home so I could talk to Jessica and see what was up.
Anyway Im back were I was three months ago. I met this girl about 3 weeks ago and now I think we're finally gonna go out and do something cause we have both been BUSSSYYY. But Im not as nervous as I have been it the past cause I gotta be me and if she likes me she likes me and if she doesn't then oh well try again. I just hate the fact that I know the answer to all of my problems but I can't believe them. Like Im pretty sure ill end up happy and married and everything but Im sooo scared that I won't. But lately Ive been happy really happy. I mean everyone remembers the Wiebke from before, well hes back. I can take joy once again in sellign produce and talking to old ladies, I enjoy life again. I can' wait for college, I gotta get out though something sooooonnn.

I don't know

Man this summer is turning out pretty good. I have reconnected with some old friends, Im making money which is a plus, and most importantly Im still making more friends.
So far I have become really close again with B-Gal, Rachael, Fish, Kaitlyn, BK and Rob. I made some new friends through Jessica who are cool and I talk to some of them more than my closest friends. Cliff and I are cool I haven't talked to Suzzy in a while but shes been in Mexico, Robin went from not liking me to think I was a pretty cool kid, and Amanda and Jordan have talked to me some. Patrick I don't know yet, I think he still hates me, but thats ok. I guess Ill go see them when they get back from Puerto Rico.
Mark's taking us all out on the boat for the fourth cause hes letting us off early which is sweet!! We'll probably drink the night away or something chilling out there floating around lol. I donno this summer might do a 180 after all, but lets just not get our hopes up just yet. Ohhh and college in 2 months yeahhhhh. I really gotta go chill with Will sometime. lol Speaking of Will me and Tony were chillin and we went by Lindseys house where Lindsey and Will were and we lurked outside for like 10 minutes trying to call them. Then lindseys mom came out and was like "They're on the porch shhhhh!!!!" So we talked to Will and Lindsey who had been hiding from us and then we left but when we left we yelled out the window " OK WILL Trojan's it is!!!" It was soooooo hilarious lol. Then we went and got free food from Sonic cause I know everyone that works there. Wow it has been pretty interesting!