WOW

i thought college was supposed to be the time of oppurtunity. Of sex, drugs, people, new friends, dating, and fun, and school too. as of right now i have one of those SCHOOL, it takes so long and its soo hard watching everyone else go party and have fun when you are working your ass off, and you want to go and say screw it like in highschool but you cant because SOMEONE is paying thousnads of dollars for you to be able to do that work. I appreciate that soo much and thats myy problem. I respect and appreciate things too much. I should jsut let go, just go and get shit faced and jigh and laid all in the same night!! but i wont, i cant thats not what i want, i know what i want. I cant have what i want, i want more time i want to go back for the first time ever, i want to meet HER, and i want it NOW. Nothing else matters thats it. But right now everything EXCEPT that seems to have to matter or else what is the point? Im waiting here, is the bus gonna stop or am i gonna have to jump in front of it?