Damn it! then Bless it

I reallly realllly want to skip graduation practice on that Thursday SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOO bad, I mean WHO?????? cares if I walk across a stage to get a piece of paper? What I care about is seeing people when they come down to see me, and seeing Jessica that is all that matters in the next two weeks. I know we can do stuff when we get back from colorodo, but it just seems sooooo far away. I will have fun while im gone though even though I don't think I will. I just thought about it today, maybe Im holding on too tight; you know if you hold a pencil to hard you're going to get writters cramp, maybe im giving myself lovers cramps, I mean the pencil is fine in your hand; its not going anywhere. Am I wrong to to hold on tooo tight? IDK i just feel like maybe im squashing her but its only because im not going to see her as much this summer as i usually do so im trying SOOOO hard to see her as much as I can. (Feel free to comment) My life is still looking pretty well though, like i said the other day my life is looking on track; its the perfect time to get blind sided. I have a cool roomate Im going to do well in college I think, even though I wont have a car most likely ill still find ways to come see Jessica and she can come see me. Oh yeah and we have 9 days of school left, wow!!!