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It seems so strange that only a week and a day ago I was on the top of the world. I was standing there with my girlfriend at prom having the best night of my life and I could do anything, then right as I said in my last post it was time to get side swiped, (how do I know things like this are going to happen?) I did, but it wasn't a bad side swipe, actually it was, it was just a diffrent kind. The kind that is bad, but you can't be mad about, which is the worst cause we all know how easy it is to be mad but to be sad without mad is kinda hard. I am partly happy though cause this past month has taught me things about myself that I didn't know, things that I hope that after a few weeks I can tell her but not right now. I know though that I have a great friend now that will always be there. For the next few months I am going to have to relearn how to live on my own without anyone, I know ill make it i just don't know how yet. Finally I will fulfill her request to try someone else because to be honest if I find someone else and I like them better than I like her than im better off anyway :) That actually makes me happy in some ways because either way I either know I get her which is something thats amazing or I get something Ive never dreamed of.