I can't believe the past three days. I have done sooo much better. I mean Wednesday night I went to Jessicas church to see her and how everyone was doing and it was cool. Till the end I was having fun then when it was time to say goodbye I didn' know how it hurt but it was great to see her. But now it seems like her life is getting back on track overshadowed by a tragedy is something that for both of our sakes is true. I really truely do hope that she can find true love with him because if se doesn't then she will be devestated, but somehow the past two or three days I honestly started to believe in them. The one thing I have left to do is meet this guy, this one who has cause her so much pain and joy. In a wierd way, it really is wierd, I want to see what I was missing but anyway.

I work one more day this week and then IM OFFF to go have fun, then I work. Then I have family reunioun time. I can't wait for college its going to be sooooo much fun!!!! I have to start chilling with my friends more now. Boy today was a goood dayyyy despite the rain.